….friends, allow me to regress…indulge me…

its been a little over a year…when a life turning event changed my life…it changed me….

finally… a year after I am gonna say my piece…but lest the gossip mongers feast on this I tell you now that I am over “it”…it took time, yes…it took A LOT of time…but here I am over and not ever, EVER looking back…it was a year ago when I lost someone I love…someone i trusted…someone who I thought was the one…we made plans to spend our life together..oh yes we made plans…but he made plans, too..but not with me…the one person who i thought would never hurt me did just that…the one person I trusted betrayed me…

no need to go into all the nitty gritty details of that horrendous “event” no use in re-living all the pain…no use in re-living all the hurt…

“…nobody told me that you fell out of love for me

so I’m setting you free…”

that episode taught me a lot of lessons…

1. never give your trust blindingly

2. never trust Cebuanas

3. never discount your friends or forget them or let them feel that they come second best to your man

4. know who your real friends are

5. remember God even in times of happiness…

6. have faith in God and in yourself

7. your tears …even if they seem like they will never dry up…eventually will…

8. that the male specie do get over someone really fast

9. leave a little bit of love and dignity for yourself

10. fight for someone you love if its worth fighting for

11. know when to say sorry

12. learn from your mistakes

13. learn to appreciate the simple things in life

14. love my mom no matter how she fucked up my childhood

15. when people want to leave you…let them…

16. tell people how much they mean to you

17. say thank you and sorry

18. LIVE EACH DAY AS IF ITS YOUR LAST

19. be extra nice to people…

20. never cheat or lie to anyone esp to people you love

21. be forgiving…………………………

…my list can go on and on and on but those are just some of the lessons that I learned…the hard way

My Happy Ending

So much for my happy ending

Let’s talk this over

It’s not like we’re dead

Was it something I did?

Was it something You said?

Don’t leave me hanging

In a city so dead

Held up so high

On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew

And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted

We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it

And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending

You’ve got your dumb friends

I know what they say

They tell you I’m difficult

But so are they

But they don’t know me

Do they even know you?

All the things you hide from me

All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew

And I thought we could be

It’s nice to know that you were there

Thanks for acting like you cared

And making me feel like I was the only one

It’s nice to know we had it all

Thanks for watching as I fall

And letting me know we were done

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