“What does not kill you will make you more stronger and more cynical.”
After my crying episode last night (na nakatulugan ko) I suddenly woke up around 2am. I haven’t had a decent night’s sleep for months now. Not even with the help of sleeping pills nope, sleep will not come to this tired body now…no, not yet…i tried to get back to sleep but to no avail…I cried again. My cries has not been cries of pain due to a lost love…it was more of a cry of a person wanting some relief from all the emotional roller coaster…from all the emotional punches and kicks that I’ve been getting lately…its like I’m in a heavyweight fight…knocked out several times but as the referee counts I get up and and raise my fists again to fight…i know that i can still fight but my body is all black and blue from all the hard hits I’ve been getting…
I am stronger now..much much more that I have ever been these past few months but sometimes I still feel so weak and helpless…but I am not going to stop..i am not going to let the referre stop the fight not let me count me out…and when the judges annouce their score cards, I am gonna win many times over…I am gonna come out of top…
no matter how badly your heart is broken, the world does not stop for your grief
Come on, let’s reason together
By Dr. Harold J. Sala
“For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your
sins.”- Matthew 6:14, 15
To forgive someone doesn’t mean you give in, that you capitulate in weakness. But it does mean, in simple terms, that you pull the knife out of your own stomach. Instead
of turning yourself inside out with bitterness, you release the bitterness which has been gnawing at your innards, and you allow the process of healing to begin. Long ago God held out the olive branch of peace to those who had wilfully and knowingly turned against Him. He invited them to stop and reason, to think, stressing the fact that to give and accept forgiveness is not only reasonable, it is the only path to healing and
restoration. Here’s the famous text found in Isaiah 1: “Come now, let us reason together,’ says the Lord. ‘Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as
snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool. If you are willing and obedient, you will eat the best from the land; but if you resist and rebel, you will
be devoured by the sword” (Isaiah 1:18-20).
Wrongdoing or the extent of it isn’t the issue. Ok, you were wronged. “Come, now,” God says, “let’s reason together.” Have you ever wondered why people refuse to forgive, why they hold on to bitterness that becomes a cancer that eats them away? Medical research has proven conclusively that people who are free of bitterness and anger live longer, enjoy life more, and are more free of hang-ups than those who refuse to forgive. There is no logic in living with bitterness. Long ago the writer of Proverbs said, “There’s a way that looks harmless enough; look again–it leads straight to hell” (Proverbs 16:25, the message). The way that often seems right from a human standpoint is the way of revenge, of getting even. Jesus talked about the way that is straight and narrow, which leads to life, and the path that is wide, the well-travelled one, that leads to death.
It’s your choice. Releasing bitterness, giving up your right to hurt someone because that person hurt you, is not only good for your health, but also good for your heart and soul as well. Frankly, the best way to deal with those who hurt you is to forgive them, love them, and let God deal with them in His way, and in His time. Paul’s statement, “‘Vengeance is mine; I will repay,’ says the Lord” is not idle chatter.
Have you forgiven the one who hurt you? Jesus said that unless we forgive others, our Father in heaven will not forgive us. So just in case, since you are possibly less than entirely saintly yourself, better learn to forgive.
Say it, write a letter, make a telephone call–whatever is necessary–just do it. You’ll be the winner when you do. –
Resource Reading: Luke 16:1-13