“Once, twice, thrice, gaano ba kadalas ang minsan?”

kahit anong kikim mo pala dadating at dadating din ang oras na babagsaka ka nalang.  na hahagulgol ka nalang. na iiyak mo lahat ng sama ng loob na naramdaman mo.

dumating nga yung araw na yun. ayun parang dumating si Milenyo.

nakakasama ng loob.  nakaka stress. nakakapang galaiti sa galit.

ganito pala ang feeling ng natraydor. ganito pala ang feeling ng iniwan.  ganito pala ang feeling na pinasahan ng lahat ng responsibilidad ng wlang tulong man lang habang nakikita mo na ang dapat mong katutulong e nagbubuhay mayaman.

nakapanlulumo.nakakapagod.nakakaiyak.

ayoko na.  para sa anak ko. para sa anak mo. ayoko na.  wag sana dumating ang panahon na gabain ka ng karma.  wag sana dumating ang araw na magsisisi ka sa lahat ng pasakit na binigay mo sa akin at sa anak ko…dahil pag dumating yun…luluha ka ng dugo .  sumpa na kung sumpa.   masama na kung masama.  hindi ako ang nagsimula.  hindi ako ang may atraso.  wla akong naging kasalanan sayo.  naging mabait ako.  ako ang nawalan. ako ang naatraso pero naisip mo ba yon?  malamang sa malamang hindi.  minsan lang ako magalit.  minsan lang ako magsasalita.  minsan lang….matuto ka na sana magdasal.

apathy grows quietly where rapture used to fly

While being madly in love is fun, perhaps one should aspire to be sanely in love.
Guy to Girl: I love you. This is not a ball. (“Hindi ito bola”)
Hell, just stay away from anyone who makes you chronically unhappy.”

Life Got In The Way
by Sister Hazel

We knew it all from a little thing
It was everything in our first minute
And it took us to another place
Yeah another place and we fell in it
How dare you not remember
How dare you walk away
We adored every little thing
Every little thing would leave us breathless
Every dawn spelled another day
And in another day we weren’t so restless
How dare you not remember
How dare you walk away

(Chorus)
And I wanted you so much
Just like I do right now
I wanted us to be the one the poets write their books about
I wanted it to last
I wanted to grow old
But life got in the way

We walked around in a heavy haze
We were stuck in days of so much warring
We got lost in a tricky maze
Yeah a tricky maze that was so scarring
How come you can’t remember
How dare you walk away
Then you start to add the little things
Add the little things and trip the mighty
Now we got a little bitter thing
A little bitter thing that grew like ivy
And how dare you not remember
How dare you walk away

Chorus

And apathy grows quietly where rapture used to fly
And promises and certainty have left love here to die
Won’t you stay and don’t let this one fall away

Yeah well life got in the way

no resignation

ive been sitting in front of my pc for hours trying to compose something…been quite busy…changing of shifts…getting that “nesting” feeling again…

i just bought some new clothes…nahihirapan na ko maghanap ng damit na magkakasya sa akin..yes I’m as big as a tub…i’m pregnant eh… what’s your excuse? I’m on my 28th week of pregnancy…is that 7months? anyhow, 2 more months and I’ll see my new baby boy..he’s been keeping me awake all night and been so KSP all day…if alessi is gonna be my Reggie Miller then Inigo (ulk…i think) would be my Zadine (hopefully… he’s that cute too! magmamana ka kay mommy magmamana ka kay mommy magmamana ka kay mommy). If I remember correctly Alessi started kicking during my last trimester…this kiddo started to kick (hard a!) ’round February and has been at it ever since…should be that he should only let his presence felt several times a day but kiddo has been telling me that he wants more space almost every hour (anak mommy is small..uhm petite! she just looks like a tub because you’re inside her!)…im sooo deprived of sleep na…i barely get enough because I’m always in the banyo, being kicked by bagets (alessi) or being woken up by the kiddo…when I give birth I’m gonna have myself a good and loooong sleep (as if!)…

speaking of…i’ve been fixing my old room to be the new nursery..since we can’t seem to find a decent place to move into (yes we are still looking) then in between sleep and waiting for this page to load I try to fix the new nursery so it can fit all of Alessi’s toys, clothes and stuff plus making space for the Inigo’s…hay now plang I can see that my 2 boys will be mommy’s little monsters! aarrrgghhhh! (will start saving for bail money ! will start saving for bail money!)

but as early as now I just pray that everything would be smooth sailing…from my las trimester, to my CS operation ..hay sige na nga up to the my last breath na para covered na lahat!)….oh oh oh…can I also wish that he just get his papa’s height…yun lang wla nang iba.period. pwde na sya maging kamuha ni mommy…kasing bait ni mommy…basta lahat mommy except for the height…yun lang ang di ko kaya ibigay mga anak…

last sunday was mother’s day…and although i got the usual hppy mother’s day greetings..some people have actually forgotten to send me gifts or flowers or even a simple thank you for bearing their sons…haaayyy…

bata bata pano ka ginawa?

confirmed..its gonna be another boy…as I said i originally wanted a girl but the saying “the sins of the father…yada yada…” scared the hell out of me so boy nalang ulit…so ngayon ang name naman nya is Inigo Gabriel Jose Antonio Perez

 

tska na ang update..napapagod na ko e